I throw my hands up in the air some times, saying aye-oh, gotta let go

The last 3 days were nothing short of amazing. But so much has happened, so much emotions involved. I feel like a month has passed. Too much going on for the past 3 days for me to handle. No doubt it has been the best, but something's missing. I don't know but I feel like this will drag for the longest time. I didn't want to rush things, I didn't want this feeling to get to me.

But on a lighter note, my urge to eat on a constant mode has stopped! Rejoice! But I still think I eat a lot? Seriously, when you get stuffed with food for every meal, you won't think it's funny..

And my mugging seriously needs to start! Like seriously! I study but not mug. I need to be a bit more hardcore. HAHA ):

Dear statistics, please try to be gracious? I know I don't attend lectures or listen in tutorials, I haven exactly been your biggest fan. But I know I should now. I hope it's not too late. Please be kind to me, use only terms I am familiar with and I promise I will try to ace you. HAHAHA. And dear economics, management and accounting, even though I won't have much of a problem with you but please try not to come up with some funny stunt of a question? Let's just keeps things plain and simple! I will be forever grateful!

I need to start praying on a daily basis now. I really need to; starting tonight!

Beyond Words

In every being, there lies a monster. And I think I have a cookie monster in me. Omm nom nom. ): I seriously eat so much, it's not funny anymore. You know what sucks even more than eating yourself broke every friggin day? Putting on all the weight! You know I think I gain faster than I lose now. WHICH IS A FRIGGIN NIGHTMARE. I need to go on a chilli diet, boost them metabolism rate. Hehe

You know, it's already August. In no time, it'll be October and Shups will be back. (If you decide to come back straight and not go one roadtrips!!!) And soon it will be November and Zhiyi and Kim will be back too! I really cannot wait eh! Miss them so fucking much, you have no idea! ): by then we'd all go for all the food you've missed. Chomps to BK Eating House to sunset grill!

You see, my posts are very stagnant. They're always either about food, school, my grandma or angsty emotional posts. Walao eh. But I don't care.

After complaining last night that there isn't enough food at home for this hungry bitch, today I have so much food! Hehehe, I am sucha happy (FATFATFATTY) girl now. Meow meow.. Cant. Stop. Eating..... ): Need. To. STOP. PRONTO. Oh but you can never say no to birthday dinners. The food's always awesome. Like really really brilliant. :D Daddy's birthday dinner tonight. I must say, I haven had sucha hearty good meal in like a while. Mostly cos I always eat out on my own. The best time to have such a good meal is with your parents. HAHAHAHAHA. Hi mom love you. Okay I'm gonna get myself like snacks (at this time, I know right..) and hit the books. ):

Let me wrap my arms around you, let me take your breath away.

I'll take your every suffering moment and bring a better day

Hohoho, I haven updated in a while. Been too busy with nothing. Hiakhiak. Okay fine, exams are in barely 2 weeks, I don't even wanna talk about it. Ask if I'm prepared HAHAHA far from being prepared I swear. ): How... So many things to do, so little time. ):

Quick update, actually nothing much to update. I've been pretty much the same. Just better days ahead I hope. Can't wait for this God forsaken period to be over! PMS + stress totally don't go. I eat so much I really scare the fuck out of myself. And everyday, I literally eat myself BROKE. Broke okay, how can anyone eat themselves broke EVERY FUCKING DAY!! Oh goodness, need to do something before something or some part of me grows out of proportion.

Back to my fat ways, back to my fat clothes. I think I can permanently pack my skinny clothes away because I HAVE BEEN FAT FOR THE LONGEST TIME NOW. ): I don't want this to be permanent! I need to go swimming/running on a regular basis, PRONTO. But after my period comes. HAHA seeeeee, procrastination kills the cat. Laziness is the root of procrastinating. ):

If you think you can get something out of my facebook twitter or blog, you are very wrong. Don't think I don't know what you're up to. Stalk all you want, I wish you could get something out of all of this. I wish I could do something to help. But sadly I highly doubt I'd be of any kind of assistance to you. I hope you'll get what you want out of what you are doing. Something other than a waste of time, and the satisfaction of disappointment to things I cannot provide.

Random note that I always bring up: MY ENGRISH ISH DETERIORATING AT THE SPEED OF LIGHT. I really need to start reading again. Really start. Not just tell myself I need to. Because this time round, I REALLY NEED TO. My grammar is atrocious, and my vocab is unbelievable. I cannot even remember when was the last time I ever doubted my own writing, other than now. The last time I had to fucking read my work a second time to check for grammatical, vocabulary and spelling errors. I don't know. Maybe I have been increasingly absent minded and careless lately but that doesn't serve as an excuse for poor english! ): Depwessed to the fucking max.

Straw

You know what, who at the age of 20 still gets restricted the way I am. Seriously. How many people out there will be shocked whenever I say "oh I cannot do stay overs" They question if I'm really fucking 20 years old. Please.. Even other people in our family gets to stay at chalets. Cousins who are YOUNGER than me. I really don't get what the fuck you're so uptight about. Yah you say worry. My sister never ever came home since she was 19 I don't see you blaming her for causing you to lose sleep. I think you need to relax. This is the 21st century, go out there and ask all other 20 year olds, they've prolly been to countless countries with their friends by now. And seriously, don't need to keep threatening me about making me move out. If you wanna keep threatening me, one year back when I really went crazy and wanted to leave you ask me not to pack for what? Should've just let me go what. Save you all this shit heartache bullshit. You should know by now it's not I don't dare to move out, I am only respecting you. Can't fucking wait to turn 21. Seriously.